You have 1 month....

I had a couple of new cases allocated today.
One was one of my ex-service user who I worked with
for over one year, a pretty chaotic case...
alcohol misuse, financial abuse, constant falls, difficult partner etc

I heard about her cancer diagnosis few months ago
and I remember posting about cancer cases last year.
Her prognosis is so poor...1 month...lung cancer can develop
so quickly and the pain is unbearable. It is quite sad to see
someone die slowly but I always advocate for a good death
and I will try to assist her for a comfortable death.

Yes, a good death will be a very relative concept but I try to
deliver is a good death by fulfilling ones wish of the place
of death e.g. home, hospital. You will be surprise to know
that majority of people die in hospital which is often against
their wishes.

St Martin in the fields

First classical concert of the year.
It has been such awhile I was here for a concert.
Never sat upstairs but the acoustic was still very good.

Mozart Requim by candlelight
Hendal
Vivaldi

I cannot rememeber the names of the pieces played but Mozart's Requim was
the main piece for the night though Vivaldi's work was very good too.
I am listening to Classical music with an interesting translation into metal music.
The two genre seems far apart but you can make the connection which I got to realise
recently through someone special who wore a very nice pink shirt!



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Leonardo da Vinic

5 hours of queuing for FOUR tickets to share the pleasure with good friends,
a friend called me an art junkie!

I queued from 6.30am for the day tickets!!
It was a very cold morning but I went with a warm heart
and met some fun people in the queue.
We end up exchanging email addresses and kept in touch since then.

about 7am

about 7.30am
These people did not get the chance for the day tickets, too late!



about 8am

About 8.30am

These are the precious tickets that worth more than the actual prices.

9 Nov 2011- 5 Feb 2012

National Gallery

Sainsbury Wing



 I was overly tired having so little sleep from the previous night but
it was quite an inspiring exhibition and such fine works
by a giant of art kept me fully alert.

It made me wonder what it is like to be ahead of ones time means....



Carer's funding

I had a case who has an aggressive brain turmor
making good progress but it took a turn over
Christmas. He was then admitted to a hospice and
he is now palliative and his funding has also
been transferred to NHS. I will exlpain this aspect
later about the two different channels of funding- NHS & Social Services

The interesting bit was were the funding for his wife,
his informal carer, comes from when the cared for is
funded through health. I did not have enough time
to look up the legislations but the managers said it is a very
grey area. You would think it will also be funded by health
but it is the local authorities assessing the carer's needs
and also assisting with provision of carers' services, that is where
the complication lays in cases like above. I still do not have the answer....

Loss in Emotions

I have only managed to come back to my own case work
yesterday after 3 days full duty and a sick leave since
coming back from Christmas leave.

It is not clear whether I had a good time off that I have
loss tract with my cases or I have lost interest in work.
I think it will be bit of both as I really struggle to go to work
today. It is not about having interesting cases to work with.
I have enough complex cases to work on that are demanding.

I had a late visit at one of my MDN service user who is
always a delight to see. She also gave me a small Christmas gift,
a bottle of Baileys. She never forgets it, this is my second one,
I hope to get it year after years....what I am trying to say is that
I am not sure how long she will be healthy for.
I always take a deep breath whenever I receive a call in relations to
MND service users as it could be a surprise news.
However, I must say I somewhat did not have much emotional
strenght to be present with her. I hate this feeling of being so
detached from what I do. I know I cannot always be emotionally
charged as I am a human being but I felt so distant.....


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